Why I dont leave the house without Josh...

Not too many people know this about me, it's something I have noticed about myself and that both my Dad and Josh know as well........ I don’t ever leave the house without Josh unless I am going to or from work or tanning on Saturday morning. I know it sounds crazy but it's true. I am scared to death of going out in public alone because EVERY TIME I do I feel I get harassed by someone. I think I'm scared of men that i don't know. I feel like they are just too aggressive and it scares me to the point where I never want to leave the house and be out in public alone. Every now and then I'll stop at the store on my lunch or my way home from work and kid you not EVERY single time I get harassed by some guy (and not to sound like a Brat but I don’t like men talking to me) …It is so uncomfortable when you hate that kind of attention. I HATE attention and that is one thing Josh and I are completely opposite about…He loves attention, he is loud and will goof off in front of anyone. I on the other hand try to avoid attention by all means.I just think it is so ridiculous that I can’t go somewhere without some pervert trying to talk to me and maybe they aren't perverts but I feel much violated when I am approached. A lot of how I feel I'm sure has to do with how in love I am with Josh. I just feel like all men should know better than to try and talk to me. But really, is it normal to feel… ugh how can I put it…scared of the world??? Every time I get enough courage to make a grocery stop or local liquor store stop on my own, my point is proved once again and once again I’m scared to leave the house. Last weekend I stopped at Albertsons after tanning only to have some weirdo that works there try and talk to me and offer to walk me to my car. Every time i do go there alone he talks to me and sometimes even follows me around to make conversation while I'm shopping. But when Josh is there he wont even look at me....That guy is the reason i avoid the store alone! A few nights ago Josh tells me Sean is coming over with some steaks to BBQ. So i said "ok I'm going to stop by the liquor store and pick up stuff to make dirty martinis" i was already sketchy on stopping there alone and Josh knew it and said "if you want, come pick me up and ll go with you" But it was on the way home and i didn't want to bother him with my stupid worries. So i get to the store and immediately without being able to shop on my own someone comes up to me and shows me everything I'm looking for (that was nice of him and i actually didn't feel harassed). That didn't last long. I leave the store and walk up to my car only to have some guy trying to flag me down in the parking lot (ohhhhhhhhhhh here we go) I hurry, close the door, start the car and start backing out...He comes all the way up to my window sticks his phone up to the window asking for my number! how rude!!!! I show him my ring and shake my head at him and he put his phone away and walks away....i proceed to pull away and as I'm getting ready to turn onto the main street another guy is flagging me down! Are you serious?!? Is this a joke? This is why i don't go anywhere alone and why does this happen to me every time! Josh says I'm too nice and i need to be more of a B**** when I'm approached....I just feel like men should have more respect for women. I'm not wearing anything to flaunt myself, i try my hardest not to make eye contact with anyone either so why bug me! I was never like this before, i don't know why I'm so scared of men now...Maybe it's from all the Americas Most Wanted and Cops i watch or maybe it's because I'm so head over heels ln love with my husband i don't want any attention from anyone but him....I just wish i could get over it and not be so scared to go places alone. But the truth is i don't think ill ever get over it! Ill continue to stay home and clean on Saturdays and not move that hummer until josh comes walking through that door and ill continue driving to work and straight home every night and stay home until josh is there to drive me where i need to go....I'm just lucky he doesn't mind and that my fears make him feel like he is my protector by all means.....Maybe just maybe one day ill ummm GROW some BALLS i guess....