I Love Coming Home!

As crazy as this may sound, there is not a day of the week i do not love! My Mondays are never a case of the Mondays, in fact i actually look forward to them because Josh and I have a little routine Mondays being he has no work. I love our Mondays and I love that when i come home he has the house all nice and clean, candles lit and he always has a glass of wine waiting for me. I come home and change into my comfy clothes and then we have the whole night of nothing but enjoying each other and talking about our day.



The rest of the week goes by so fast because I'm so overly busy at work i don't even notice what time it is half the time. But the best part of my every day is what i get to come home to!!! 6pm rolls around and I'm driving home smiling every day because i know who is home waiting for me! There is just no better feeling!!! I love our little home, it's so cozy and it's ours! We can do whatever we want, when we want and how we want because we own that little home and it's our little world! I love coming home to my best friend, having a glass of wine with him and just talking for hours (yes, we can still talk for hours about anything) and watching the animals run around the house and Aussie cracking us up with her random talk! Everyday is just so much fun and it's such a great feeling to be so in love and so fulfilled in every way. I have the most romantic husband who is always keeping me on my toes, keeping our love fresh and can i just say he is hard to keep up with in the romance department : ) I LOVE COMING HOME!!!

Oh Baby!

Hurry home!!!! I got Champagne, Grapes, Cheese, Crackers, Movies and now all i need is for you to hurry home : ) Mmmmmm my favorite kind of night wth you my love!!!!

Marriage & Divorce...

It's insane how many people you hear about getting divorced these days. People our age who just got married and already they are giving up on their marriage WTH?? Too many people take marriage lightly now. It's like they want to jump on the band wagon of what everyone else is doing, rushing to catch up to everyone else, not having patience and just jumping into something i don't think they realize is a commitment for the rest of their lives! When you fall in love take time and enjoy being in love before making a huge decision such as marriage. I am the first to defend men when it comes to relationships and marriages. I think too many women expect to just be taken care of, too many women complain about themselves, their husbands and about things in their life, too many women want to rush marriage or children when the guy isn't really ready for it and too many women are freakin moody and bipolar making it impossible for a man to get a long with let alone come home to. As for men, they are who they are and they don't change who they are after marriage, women should know that by now. Marrying someone does not make a bad relationship better either. I hate hearing about divorce. I hate hearing people have just given up. It truly gives love and marriage a bad name.

When Josh and I got engaged so many people told us "Good luck, the first 3 years are hard and that's when you really learn the most about each other... marriage is hard work". I have to admit, it kind of scared us to hear that being we never fought. The reason Josh and I never fought and still don't is because we were best friends first. We knew each other outside of being in a relationship and we had so much respect for one another from day one. We never played games and never held anything back from one another. We have been married a little over a year now and we have yet to figure out what people are taking about when they say it's hard work. Maybe it has something to do with they way we did things. We moved in together before we were together and shared a room at my dads house for a year and a half. One room just Josh and I, from day one. If we were gonna get on each others nerves or realize bad habits this is where we would figure it all out. Luckily enough all our bad habits were cute to one another : ) We brought all our friends together hung out, partied and established "friends" together. The day we got engaged we combined both our bank accounts and learned how to manage money together as one. Josh had just bought me an expensive engagement ring that he was planning on making payments on for a year. We knew we wanted to buy a house together at that time so we immediately combined our bank accounts and we payed off my ring together fast! We saved money each month as if it were a house payment and payed the ring in full. That was our first test at we handled money together and after the ring was payed off we bought our home while planning a wedding together. We basically tackled everything before marriage and maybe that's why we don't understand when people say the first few years are hard. You have to always serve one another and the day you stop is the day everything will go down hill...

I really hate hearing people have given up. Marrige should never be taken lightly. You should always give your all and never stop serving the person your with.

Sick and Tired of being Sick!

I was just saying "I never get sick" to people at work and then BOOM out of no where i get sick. There is nothing worse then not being able to function. I am always on the go, always doing something, always moving around and for the past 2 days i have done nothing but sleep, drink tea and eat top ramen. Grrrr i hate this! I hate not being able to go to work when i know how much work is sitting on my desk, i hate not being able to workout because i don't have the energy, i hate not being able to clean the house or cook because my body hurts too much to get up, i hate not being able to hold Aussie because she can easily get sick if i touch her and i hate that i cant cuddle or make love to my husband because i don't want to get him sick (lord only knows if he gets sick it will be 10times worse then my getting sick). Hoping today will be the last day of this awful flu.
On another note..Thank you, My Love, for staying home with me yesterday. For taking care of me and not allowing me to do anything for myself. Although i slept almost the whole entire day, the best feeling was knowing every time i woke up you were right there offering me medicine, food, water etc.... You are so good to me, you really are the best husband, so selfless and so good to me all the time. I miss you today. It seems like the longest day knowing you have work and then off to take your test : ( and you wont be home till late. I guess Aussie can entertain me until you get home. You should hear her practicing her "cough" every time i cough she mocks me to the T. Cracks me up. After you left this morning i made some soup, had a couple bites and couldn't eat anymore so i took NyQuil and passed out until almost noon. I woke up to all three dogs surrounding me on the couch and Aussie on the other couch watching out the window : ) They make me smile. I will see you tonight, My love, Xoxoxo

EVERYTHING IS CHAOTIC:

GOD BRINGS ORDER WHERE THERE IS CHAOS

CHAOS IS OFTEN CREATED WHEN I FORGET GOD

CHAOS REMINDS ME TO SURRENDER

Moses answered the people, “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the deliverance the Lord will bring
you today. The Egyptians you see today you will never see again. The Lord will fight for you; you need only
to be still.” Exodus 14:13-14 (TNIV)

Be still, and know that I am God. Psalm 46:10 (TNIV)

This was our message in church this past Sunday. So weird, Tim Mcgraw (my favorite all time artist) just came out with a new CD and my favorite song is the very first song " Still". Very similar to the message we heard in church. We get so lost in life's chaos we forget to just sit there and take in all we have and all of life's beautiful moments that God has given us. When we make our life CHAOTIC (yes we do this to ourselves) we tend to forget about God. We forget to take time out of our day to pray, to get to know him more and to trust him to help us with the chaos we have created in our lives.

This brings me back to the way Josh and I are with one another. So many people have something to say about our relationship. They say we don't include anyone in our lives, we never hang out when we are invited places, we are stuck up and spoiled etc...
Well, then you must really not know us. We have worked hard to get where we are today and will continue to work hard to reach our goals. This means we have to sacrifice a few things such as spending unnecessary amounts of money partying or going out and that's OK because we chose to live this way. That does not mean we are not good friends or bad people though. we have created a life together that involves much responsibility and many bills. We don't ever complain about our bills because we created them and take full responsibility for them. Sometimes our lives feel chaotic because of bills and how much we both work. It's like each day is just not long enough to get everything done and sometimes it even feels like we don't get enough time with each other, our families and our animals. When we have a week that feels chaotic Josh and I both take a day off work together and just spend one whole day relaxing with one another and taking in all we have because at times we are so busy we don't even get a second to do that. So call me whatever you want but God, My husband, Family, Animals and the very couple GOOD friends we have are what matter most to me. I will always make time for those who matter most to me, i will learn to just stand still and embrace and trust in God to help me get through life when it feels so "chaotic".

The one thing i can honestly say about myself is how selfless i am. I like to see everyone around me happy and that's what makes ME happy. I will give and do as much as i can to make those in my life happy and never complain if i feel you have a big heart and your truly a good person. I'm very selective on who i let in my life and i think that's because i know how much I'm willing to give once i let you in. I think one of the biggest gifts i have received from God is my huge heart and outlook on life. Xoxox

I Got What I Asked For Soooo....

I was thinking about my Job the other day and how much work i constantly have now. Some days i feel so overwhelmed i just wanna cry and other days i handle it just fine. I try never to have a bad day at wok, I'm pretty good at staying positive and dealing with all that does come my way because I'm good at what i do and i have confidence in myself. When i say I'm good at what i do, i mean I'm good with multitasking and i ask a million and one question to make sure i have the correct understanding of that I'm learning. I am a perfectionist by all means, i hate letting people down and always do my best with anything thrown my way. Anyhow, I've got it made here at work and sometimes i don't think i realize that. I have about a month of vacation total given to me. I'm always given the days off i need. My bonuses are HUGE and because of that, Josh and I never stress over Christmas gifts. My work is right on the water; only 10min aways from home and in the best location. People that come here always say this is one of the most beautiful offices they have ever seen. We have a huge formal Christmas party every year with high end food and an open bar all night long. My boss is very professional but also very laid back for the most part. I've worked here for 6 1/2 years, that says a lot in it's self. I'm committed. Some days i feel stressed and after venting to Josh i realize this is the job i wanted, i asked for it and got it and so I'm gonna love it! When i was the receptionist for the firm i work at, i took pride in all i did. I work at a place with 120 people and answered the phones for all 120 people on my own for years!! It was tough work but i always made my job fun and i was good at what i did. The last year at the reception desk started getting super busy so they hired someone for the 2nd floor as well. Then i became BORED, i was use to doing it all on my own for years. If you know me, then you know I'm a very hyper person all the time. I have to be doing something 24/7 or i get bored. I am the furthest thing from lazy you will ever meet lol no joke. So anyhow, i went down to my office manager's office and asked if i could move up in the company. She said all that would be open to move up to is accounting basically. Anything else here you need school for. Accounting, inputting numbers all day?!?! Screw that. I would go crazy doing that. Not only would i get bored but I'm use to multi tasking and that just would not work for me at all. I told her i wanted to do and learn Legal Secretary work i wanted something more challenging then what i was being offered and 6 months later i got exactly what i wanted and I'm working for the owner of the company out of all people here. So in conclusion, i got what i asked for and i will always try my best to perfect what I'm doing and try my hardest not to stress.